-rant- I am probably being too overly sensitive and bitchy about this, but the amount of my friends who are having babies or are announcing their pregnancy. Now let me preface this by saying, I am so happy for them in the most sincere and genuine way. However, I had a miscarriage four years ago and its something you never get over. I think about her a lot and always about the what ifs.
So here I am single and alone, still suffering from losing my baby and my newsfeed is filled with pregnancy belly selfies and adorable baby videos. I can feel myself slipping more and more into a depression about this.
Am I terrible person if I just hide them from my newsfeed?
I know its not a personal attack or anything and I really really really should get over it. But each post or picture is like a punch in the gut. A reminder of that I don’t have a family. I go home to an empty apartment each night. Now don’t get me wrong, I have a blessed life. A great education. A dream job. Independence. Travel plans. But I want a family… God, when is it going to be my turn?!
This pity party has been brought to by PMSing.